Preliminary Thoughts

So I suppose that this is where the normal introductory/biographical stuff goes, as well as the purpose/theme. In short, I'm a 20-something rising senior majoring in political science at UMBC. I've lived in Maryland for my entire life, and even though I've long desired to see the world, I haven't gotten the go ahead to leave the area yet. I was practically born in the back of a Southern Baptist church, but Jesus did not become really real to me until 2013. This blog is intended to be mainly  comprised of my thoughts on different aspects of the Word, revelations I'm processing/have processed from Holy Spirit, etc. And possibly some other random things. Normally I journal my thoughts because it's more permanent than trusting the inner workings of my brain to the whim of the intrawebs, but for this new season of my life, however long it's supposed to last, this is where my thoughts go. I don't know that anything written here will ever be read, but just having some semblance of thought will help me traverse the endless recesses of my brain.

This isn't my first attempt at a blog. But of all the ones I've done before, I believe that this one is to be one of the most meaningful ones. In years past, I tried writing my original thoughts about hair products, movies, Korean dramas, food, tennis, etc. but it all got so boring and meaningless so quickly. And so, I stopped. I don't see a point in continuing to write about something when I clearly have no passion or interest in it. And especially when, as a believer in Jesus, the stuff I blog about starts to take priority in my life over Him, even though He's supposed to be my entire reality and the whole reason that I exist.

I put down my electronic pen about 2 years ago, I believe.  Here I am, picking it back up again - I think as a product of my own internal frustrations and as a prompting from Holy Spirit. In real life, I'm an introvert and can be rather reserved. Many times, people take this as me not having an opinion or any thoughts about anything ever - which is far from true. Often, I'll hold back my true thoughts because I don't want people to think that I am being a jerk, always complaining/nitpicking, or just a whack job. But I'm not supposed to care about what others say about me because of what Jesus says about me. I'm nowhere near that because I still have issues seeing myself the way that Jesus sees me. Identity issues lead to insecurities. But it's time to break that off!

I have no idea what this year is going to hold. These first 5 months have already been more difficult than I could've possibly imagined. But Jesus has my heart, my yes, and my commitment, no matter what.

Let's do this.